Updates and a sucky day

Okay, to update on the whole guy thing. He did get back up with me. He wants to see me this weekend and I was planning to go since I have no kids this weekend. (this is where the sucky day starts)

I was supposed to get paid today, now mind you I've been dealing with payroll issues for a fucking month or more now. And apparently since the lady that handles the accounting is at the hospital with her adult child we aren't getting paid today because she isn't there to do it. Now normally I would be a very sympathetic person, however this whole in the hospital dying thing has been going on for the better part of a year, and I'm supposed to be paid via direct deposit. So my thought is that a) knowing her child was like this she should have prepared better while she was at work last week and emailed me concerning my bank account... and b) it's fucking direct deposit, she should have been smart and had everything set up for the banks to do all the work today. How fucking hard is this people!?

So now I won't get to see that guy this weekend. I don't even have money for gas and groceries. I'm not like the people I work with, I've been paid so little for so long I live hand to mouth and haven't been on this job (or had my pay straight for that matter) long enough to have anything put up. I don't have credit cards to fall back on like they do. This whole thing is bullshit and I'm pissed. For the love of God my kid needs tampons and I can't even go buy them. Do you know what kind of horrible parent that makes me feel like?!

Oh and to revisit another subject... the guy that got grumpy over me seeing that other guy last weekend. So he hasn't texted or talked to me all week still pissy about that. BTW with no real cause since I'm not his gf or anything like that. He texts this morning and asks if I'm coming down. I tell him no and why and then he stops talking to me again... so I text him and ask "so how come today is the first time in almost a week you decided to talk to me"

To which he replies "just been busy. and our attitudes don't match 2 well" WTF?!?!?! So I replied with a lol and have written him off. Cute or not I'm not dealing with a dumbass dickhead!

I guess that's all for my rant today. Or at least for the moment anyways.

Getting sick and other things

Hmmm where to begin? I had a great weekend overall. Met a guy and took him back to where I was staying. It was meant to be a no strings kind of thing and I would let him know if I was going to be back in town again. But I texted him twice since then with no answer and am surprised at the slight twinge of hurt I feel over that. I catch myself thinking about how good it felt to kiss him. And it felt REALLY good to kiss him! He was really nice and a lot of fun. I hope I see him again.

A guy I've been talking to that lives there (who I'm only friends with since we've only met once) got all pissy about that though when a mutual friend told him. I don't understand why he got like that. Especially since he knew I was coming to town and chose to go to Biloxi instead of seeing me. I swear I'll never understand guys!

I think I'm getting sick now. Woke up coughing and my whole body hurts. I hate being sick and need to be well because I think I'm going back to the beach this weekend.

Well I guess that's all. I'm going to try to get some sleep.
BG


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Wondering how I get into these things

Okay, so I have only been single for a half a minute. Well like a week this time. My ex and I have been on again off again for the last three months or so. Before that we were together for six years. Minus his yearly week to month long hiatuses.

So I blew off a lot of friends during that time trying to make him happy, dealt with other women, and more drama that anyone should in a lifetime.

I guess I'm trying to make it up to everyone. So I'm supposed to go see friends out of town this weekend but another friend who never gets weekend nights off has tonight off and wants me to go out with her. Tried to get out of it and she has a way to cover every reason I have not to go. So I'm going then I'm gonna go out of town tomorrow morning to see my other friends.

I feel pulled in a million different directions. Damn am I this much of a people pleaser? How do I stop being that?

BG

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Testing

Okay this is just a test to make sure I got it set up right to post from my blackberry
BG

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The beginning

Hi there, it's me. this will be short and sweet. At least for the moment. I have recently dealt with a lot of changes in my life and while I don't currently have internet at my house I do have a Blackberry I'm thinking I can make posts from.

So for now, I'm off to find out how to do that.

xoxo

BG